MasacreInTheLivingRoom

I'm stuck in the house and consequently bored...>.>...

We have about 12" of snow so I can't go anywhere TT.TT 

So I keep getting phone calls from Krato because he wants to come over. I suppose I should let him he lives next door. But if I did then Nikki (Nicole) would get really pissed. Shes my artist/roommate and another of my bestfriends. And she won't entertain me because she's working on her final project for her 3-D art class...*sigh*...Oh, well. I suppose I'll let Krato come over.

Sincerly,

Azy

So gay boys huh? Well i suppose I came to the right place on accident then didn't I? All I was doing was looking for angel drawings for some homework and I found this. How ironic since I finally decided to date my best friend after, oh I don't know, 5 years of denial. Yes, VERY ironic. Well I'm not really out of the closet yet but this works. Now I don't have to come out but I can still talk about it, yay me -insert sarcasm here-. Really this site looks pretty abandoned but whatever. I suppose thats just beneficial for me because that means that I can post whatever I want here without feeling the slightest bit embarassed :) Not that I would anyway, I tend to eb a bit TOO outgoing sometimes, and blunt. But hey, we all have flaws so i suppose I should think myself no different. Oh, and about the Heros of Gotham thing, Batman should just screw the Joker and his little underaged side-kicks and get on with life. Because his whole "I'm sexually frustrated because I can't coem out of the closet so I'm going to tak it out on everyone else" thing is starting to bother me.

 SIncerly,

Azy

I have this friend, Krato, and he's been one of my best friends since I was...11 I think. Lately, I don't know what is it but we feel different. The air between us is different. I mean we've had an on-off relatioship, sort of no strings attachted type thing for a while now, probably since we were 13. But it feels like he's gotten serious all fo a sudden. I justy don't know what to do about it... And then there's the fact that I happen to be in a secret relationship with my cousin. Jesus... I'm fucked up aren't I? Oh, well... I mean sure Ysrael (my cousin) gets a bit jelous about my relationships with my frineds he's no better. I mean everytime he sees me with someone all he does is go out and hook up with soem random whore ina  night club to make me "jelous". And it works *hangs head in shame*. But I told him, too many people want me sexually to ignore them all, because if I do I'm going to get raped. So we came to the understanding that we're allowed to see other people physically but we'll always belong to eachother emotionally. I mean really sex is just physical, there's no need for emotion in sex. Doesn't mean there's no passion it just means that you don't have to be in love with someone to screw their brains out. People these days just don't seem to understand that concept.

But Krato... I care about him alot. He's like a brother to me, a very hot brother but a broher no the less, and I don't want to lead him on. I told him that nothing would come from our relationship, we're just friend's with benefits and nothing more. He sadi that he understood but I know he's still pining after me. I mean really he told MIKA of all people! And of course Mika told me right away so... I mena i even told him that I was in a realtionship but he just said " Well then I suppose I'l just have to prove to you that I'm better now won't I?" and walked away smirking the little bastard. Actually he's taller than me come to mention it... hm. I'm like 5'7" (I know I'm short TT.TT but I still top) and he's about 6'2" *sigh* why must EVERY man in my life be taller than me? I mena really! Even Ysrael over there is 6'3"! Hah, he's taller than Krato xP Monkey (Krato) is gunna be pissed when he finds out. You see ironically they've hated eachother since they met. Hehe, funny how things work out...

Thats all for now,

Azy